Rainbow Baby

6 months ago, today, we learned we lost our Wyatt. Ironically, one month ago, today, we learned that we were expecting again. Talk about terror! I’ll be honest, I wasn’t jumping up for joy. It isn’t that I don’t value the little life inside of me; I’m just waiting on the shoe to drop. This little baby in the grieving community would often be referred to as our “rainbow baby.” I had to actually looked up the purpose behind it.
 “ *The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. “Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover, but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy, and hope.” (Babybump.com)
   That seemed to be the most concise yet thorough explanation. Logically, it makes perfect sense, and I probably would have guessed something around that if I was asked before looking it up. I am currently 10 1/2 weeks along and still scared. I’m pretty sure I’ll remain this way for, well, the rest of my pregnancy. I don’t want to take anything away from the value of this child, and I don’t want to do less for this little one because of my fear. I’m thankful that I’ve been entrusted with another life. This will definitely be a pregnancy like no other. With love-Heather 

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